It is day three in Ward 6. I must say that I have heard a lot of different snoring tones in my three days and two nights in the Big 6 (as I like to call it). The Nurses here are very friendly and caring ( I am thankful for the kind staff here in Ward 6). Lights out are by 9pm and doors are locked by mid-night. To be honest, I’m used to the environment of being the one who was always admitted (back in the day). It feels so weird to have the tables turned. My Husband is a person who is active and enjoys being out and about. And seeing him being admitted is somewhat a very different story. I’m not used to seeing my husband down in the Deep Blue. I started to notice these symptoms:-
Down in the Deep Blue:- 1. Sleeping more than usual (perhaps due to feeling weak and easily fatigue since fasting since Saturday morning and only today he was granted to drink 60CC of water for every hour (have to start slow and steady). 2. Quiet: More quiet than usual and less chatty, signs of not wanting to socialize (avoids WhatsApp every now and then. Even turned down to play his favourite game) 3. Feeling uneasy: He feels very uneasy easily, like wants to stand up, sit down and go out for a stroll ever half an hour. 4. Anxiety: Every now and then worried about something ( I can tell by his facial expression even though he does not mentioned it).
I am not used to seeing him so quiet and so inactive. But I can understand, I too would feel the same way, without no food for 3 days, only small sips of water and only IV drip attached with many intakes of Antibiotics injected.
According to:- http://www.beliefnet.com/columnists/beyondblue/2011/08/depression-after-surgery-post-op-depression.html# It is normal for some patients to feel Down in the Deep Blue due to dosages of medications that are streaming through the veins, feeling sore and stiff (unable to move the body like before due to the Post-Op), easily fatigue, Post Surgical Traumatic Stress (I noticed that he will try every cost to avoid needles). And many more other signs and symptoms.
It truly breaks my heart to see him in such pain. A kind of Silent pain that I will never hear from his lips. But deep down I can feel his pain too. To other people, it might be just a small Op (removing his appendix) but its the flashback moments of when you are in the Operating Theater, the hearing of cling clang of metallic objects that you are not familiar with, the bright lights surrounding the rooms, surgeons, doctors and nurses who you never knew and you put your every ounce of trust in them even though you have never met them, yet alone know their name. Its like taking that leap of faith and praying to Allah S.W.T that everything goes well.
I will always remember that day, the moment my husband went in the O.T. I have never felt so helpless. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t think and there were times that I did not realise that I was holding my breath until my chest like mad. I was fidgeting with my hand, fingers, shuffling my foot here and there. Heck, I was even changing seats now and then. I took roughly over an hour till he was out. And boy! He was pale as a ghost and was in so much pain that I had to literally hold back tears. I told myself that I had to fight back tears. I did not want him to worry. He was so nausea due to his severe gastric pains. I have never seen him like this before and it broke my heart into million of pieces. Wishing that I could brush away the pain. For over an hour, I finally requested the nurse to give him pain killer injection to help him sleep and rest well with ease. Along with the Pain Killer Shot, he was also given Injection for vomiting and gastric. Alhamdulilah that night he slept with ease. I was so relief. Alhamdulilah, All Praises to Allah, that the Op went well and smooth and that he is recovering. Please pray for him and may he has a speedy recovery. Ameen Ameen Ya Rabb. Tomorrow will be the day, the doctors will let us know if he can start to move on to solids. And from there, insyAllah will may give him Shaklee Mealshake to help with gastric and to ensure that he is full. I hoping that it will help him sleep with ease.
Till next time, Toodles